The Presidential Election

For the life of me, I can't figure out what's wrong with most of the people in this country. Is it me? I don't understand how so many people can get behind this Musslim fool that's running for Presideant. Do poeple not realize that he can say whatever it is that he tinks people want to hear and then once he's in office he's going to do exactlythe opposite? People are yelling now about the government wanting to take God out of everything. What do they think this Musslim is going to do? He doesn't even BELIEVE in God! He bows to a MUSSLIM GOD! What more proof than the fact that he placed his hand on the Koran when he was sworn into the Senate, do people need?
He hides his middle name, which is HUSSAN from people. He refuses to acknowledge his radical Musslim step-father. He says that he was educated in Catholic schools. Come on, TWO years in a Catholic school does not consitiute an education. Where was he educated after that? He was educated by his radical musslim father in musslim schools, for craps sake!
Yes, he has good ides. Yes, he says all the things we are wanting to hear. But honestly, can we trust him? If anyone can say that they trust this Musslim to lead this country, then I am as afradi of them as I am of this liar. I would not trust this jerk any farther than I could throw him.
He has zero experience. He's been a senator for what? All of two years? before that he has never even led a Boy Scout troop and yet he believes he can run this country! Give me a break.
I'll admit I might not be the brightest buld in the carton, but I'm smart enough to know that if this nut is elected we will be worse off than if we allowed The Idiot to stay in office.
It's obvious, by the polls, that not many people agree with me, I know. I've always felt that the popular vote should be the one that counts, but in this case, if this guy is elected by popular note, then I hope and pray that the Super Delegate are smart enough to nominate Hillary for the Democtatic party. At least she HAS been there and DOES have the experience needed to run the country. She's the smart, no nonsense, hard hitting, tough talking kind of person we need. You don;t have to like her personally, but you have to admire her spirit, her tenasity and her spunk. I doubt there is a leader in this world she could not stand up to. Osama Obama looks like he could not stand up to his 3 year old.

This is my opinion and for now, this is still a free country. But if Obama is elected, we can kiss our freedom good bye. He'sll set women's rights back 200 years and I have no doubt that before it's over, he'll have us wearing long black robes and covering our faces. Don't misunderstand. I con't give a hoot that he's black, but I DO care that he's a Musslim. That bothers the hell out of me and it should bother every person in this country.

Just Overwhelmed

I am so overwhelmed right now, with my life, with my house. OMG, this house is dirtier than it has ever been since I have lived here...and trust me, it's been pretty bad. But this mess beats all. I've never seen it where every room is such a disaster that it looks like a tornado blew up in it. And besides, just messy, it's downright dirty. Get down to the nitty gritty dirty, I mean. And I just do not have the strenght, the inclination, ir the motovation to do a damn thing about it. What is it with me? Why can't I seem to get with it? I get so tired of this same thing, day after day, and then it just gets worse, that I don;t know half the time weather to shit or go blind. Some days going blind sounds pretty goo to me, ya' know?

I really want to get my shit together and get busy and clean this house. I know it would make me feel better to sit back and look at it if things looked decently. I just don;t know why I can't seem to get moving on it. I think about it, God knows I talk about it, but I just can't seem to get the old body moving on it. Makes me nuts.

Now we find out that the hot water heater needs to be replaced to the tune of $650.00 Nice, huh? How are we supposed to manage that one? Life is just lovely some days, isn't it?

More Going's On

I've been at Kelle's for nearly a week and I had so much fun! I can't wait to go back. I came home early for two reasons, I didn't bring enough meds with me and I was going to run out and Braxton had a crisis; Ashley broke up with him, again. This is a regular occurance around here and one I am getting tired of, because of the way that he acts when it happens. It's like it is the end of the world. He walks around crying, he can't eat, or sleep and he wants to tll the entire world what has happened. He calls everyone he knows and pours it on. Oh my goodness, it is a terrible thing. Maybe I am just too old for teenage love. Maybe I just do not understand the workings of it anymore. Maybe it's been so long since I have been in love that I just don't know what it si about anymore. It very well be why I don't have the patience for it. I just pray that God gives me the strength to get through this part of raising him. It's been an up and down thing for me since Bud died. Some times we go along and things go well and then other times I worried about screwing up his life terribly. I don't like this parenting solo stuff at all. It's way too hard, knowing that someone else'e life is completely dependent on you. At least when Bud was around he had both of us to lean on and to come to. Now he has only me....to so it all and it is very scary.

I seem to always be at some sort of cross roads in my life. I always seem to be trying to decide what it is that I want, where I want to live, what I want to do. I'm thinking about Aiken again, I miss it. I miss my life there. But I also know that life there would not be the same and would I want that if I got it? Am I better off staying here where I know I have a dr and I know how things are, how life is, I mean. New orleans was such a disaster and I don't want another one of those. I can't live thorugh that again. I just want to be SETTLED and know that I am settled. I don't know why I can't be. I don't know why I can't feel like I belong anywhere. Will I ever feel that there is someplace that I belong? God, I hope so. If i could have any one thing in this whole world it would be to be where I know that I belong. Is that asking too much?